You know how it feels like giving your everything, yet it just fell apart right in front of you? I wish i didn't had any expectations of anything, anyone and even myself. I screwed up the whole last set. I think without me, you guys could have freaking won the match today. I hate this, i hate all this alot! I feel like walking away, from everything since i'm gonna let down everything i do. I seriously can't find that confidence and hope i lost in myself and i don't know why i don't even bother to.

Can i just sit on the bench all day? Cheer when you guys score a point, thinking how much badly i would have done if i was on court. Bringing your towels and water bottles to you, in every time out, encouraging you guys all the way, when actually i'm the one who needs it most? Yeah, i think so, i think i like how the bench seems to give me sympathy when i hear us cheer, to remind me how i'm not in the team, and just being nothing at all. Can i fake it all?
Good nite guys, it has been a long day. And i can't wait for thursday- no i'm lying

P/s: Gab, i love you, cheer up plz! Don't cry anymore gurl :-(

this is goodbye