Sunday, August 1, 2010

Damn me, I'm such a big failure.
It sucks to be me, it sucks to ever partner me for any senior-junior practices anyways. I totally screwed up yesterday's okay? Just cuz of the bad experiences my other friends had with her, made me so damn freaking scared. And I'm telling you its hell not worth the experience. Damn, now I know how it feels like being a mega loser and a huge disappointed! :( I really didn't know cca played such a damn important role. It's funny how I cheer on people when they have the same situation as me but I can't even pick myself up. How funny.
Well, let's move on and wait for the next training to either prove myself wrong or just stay in the pathetic situation I'm forever gonna be in. Ok jiaxuan, better cheer up and work harder. Before something disappoints you.

I really really wish I was less hateful, then maybe I wouldn't feel so fucked up anymore.

xoxo