Monday, August 30, 2010
you'll miss me when i'm gone, when i decided to quit and leave everything alone.
I'll shake everything off. When i start saying i don't hate you anymore, means i give up.
I give up holding on to whatever i had and hold on to something else more worth the ride.
So geez, i'm pms! DON'T AGITATE ME i'm always like having unconditional and scary moodswings.
pls: i'm gonna forgive whoever is on my hate list, i mean it. But if you don't wanna accept, okay. I juz don't want any sins goodbye~
xx
Friday, August 27, 2010
vampires suck
Hi folks, i'm starting to miss yog! You?
I'm gonna update once in a blue moon cuz i decided to work hard for my eoys. In the meantime you can check out my tumblr for those reblog-s and small short post and quotes. Should i forgive her? And i think we need a team talk soon, esp with pl. Okay good bye
xx
Thursday, August 19, 2010
don't stop believin'
Don't stop believin', even when you flunk your common tests like shit. Yog is coming up, and i'm gonna be quite busy with it. Soooo, don't expect anything up here in my blog okay! I promise to post after yog duties with pictures (hopefully). And before leaving I AM IN LOVE WITH GLEE. Its funny how I'm so slow, haha. But nah it don't really matter. And its quite obvious that I'm in love with "Don't Stop Believin'" by the glee cast. So if you wanna give a listen here's the chance. With lyrics :)
Lyrics:
Just a small town girl
Livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train going anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train going anywhere
A singer in a smoky room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night
Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some are born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night
Dont stop believin
Hold on to that feelin
Streetlight people
Dont stop believin
Hold on
Streetlight people
Dont stop believin
Hold on to that feelin
Streetlight people
Just a small town girl
Livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train going anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train going anywhere
A singer in a smoky room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night
Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some are born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night
Dont stop believin
Hold on to that feelin
Streetlight people
Dont stop believin
Hold on
Streetlight people
Dont stop believin
Hold on to that feelin
Streetlight people
Photo credits: Nikole (thanks lots)
Lyrics/video credits: youtube (uhm duh!)
I HATE BIATCH, I LOVE ANTI-BIATCH CLIQUE TO DA BITS!
xoxo
Thursday, August 12, 2010
confessions of a teenage kpop fan/blogger
1) I'm in love with Miss A. ( FYI its a korean girl group which consists of 2 chinese and 2 pure koreans. Awesome right? And plz those two chinese ones can sing alright! Go check them out here)
2) If you want to get updated with the latest kpop news, plz check out allkpop! (Its clickable btw.)
3)YOG is in 2 days, we currently got our like "goodie" bag and shirts. -OKAY, that's all i'm saying cuz apparently we're not supposed to tweet or blog about yog?-
4)Math common test is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't study chapter 11 about patterns yet, shit.
5)I did well for chinese common test, kinda? Altho it seems kinda cheena of me to do so anyway.
6) You guys are darn lucky that I felt like posting this, otherwise who likes dead blog?
I'm off to chat with van about our little secrets, HAHA. Today training, was quite, good. Let's hope it keeps up, and good luck to those peeps taking common tests too! Good night, god bless ya my dear readers.
edited @ 10.31pm
I can't believe I forgot to tell you guys about sunday night!! Okay here's my story:
My cousin and my brother was like playing with the comp around 9.30pm and suddenly the lights went off. Yeah, its a blackout (for all those smartasses that guessed it right.) and yeah my cousin was pretty scared cuz it was the seventh month and blah blah. So we, which includes my dear grandmother, brother and cousin decided to go downstairs and join the rest instead of like rotting upstairs. AND MY FLASHLIGHT APP IN ITOUCH WORKED! AND ITS NOT A GHOST STORY. Okay back to da point, uhm when we went downstairs yeah everyone was there. So daddy started talking about his past experiences with blackouts. And i got pretty scared cuz the whole estate is dark, like FRIGGIN' DARK OKAY. No street lights at all. So i suddenly thought of praying and praying, constantly for about 10 mins. Then i kinda gave up and got scared again. Then i decided that I should sing some hillsongs' to calm myself down, and when i sang the first line of "i could sing of your love forever" - the lights turned back on. And the very instant! I don't really think its any of those coincidences in life, but maybe of one god's work? So, to god be the glory! And thank you Father (: I love ya! (HAHA, yeah i do sound like i'm preaching.. Maybe abit.) Goodnight sweethearts, thanks for enduring thru this long post!
xoxo
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
apples and hot pink hairbands
xoxo
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Forgive and forget.
Hello kids,
today i've learnt about forgiving and forgetting. You forgive and forget when you think you should cuz you feel tired to continue fighting for your rights. You forgive becuz you think its more painful to hate someone you used to trust so much. You forget becuz its too painful to remember. And it hurts more to pretend it doesn't, right?
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Well, i'm not quite sure. Cuz basically we all pretend and act along. I really wonder when she start throwing knives behind me. I really really wonder.
Well, i suppose i'm not feeling any hurt according to someone. Yeah sorry for hurting your feelings maybe it's all my fault. Cuz i thought i was hurt too. I should have pretended that guy b really existed and i am that despo for love. Yeah, thanks for telling liyang about it. Thanks alot deary, thanks for furthering editing my life story and kinda made it more exciting. Just wanted you to know, my story isn't a movie you can make up to entertain anyone you want. Cuz you seriously don't want your life story to be used as an entertainment too, right? I suppose.
xoxo
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
alpha q
There are some people in the world that are born with a mask on their face. You'll never see their true colours the first time, but slowly their little devil tail will just slip out.. It's pretty scary cuz almost all the people you meet just can't tear up their fake masks and actions. You don't really know who are your true friends. Well, there are some that remains true and really reliable.
I TOTALLY NEED A BREAK FROM SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS!
(special ones)
cuz i'm pretty tired of your complaints telling me how much i'v changed, gathering sufficient evidence to prove me wrong. And asking her opinion, i mean if it does really matter so much i don't really give a shit. I'M VERY FREAKING TIRED! I just need a break from you ok?
xoxo
(special ones)
cuz i'm pretty tired of your complaints telling me how much i'v changed, gathering sufficient evidence to prove me wrong. And asking her opinion, i mean if it does really matter so much i don't really give a shit. I'M VERY FREAKING TIRED! I just need a break from you ok?
xoxo
Monday, August 2, 2010
No point crying over spilled milk
I'm just gonna pick myself up and do well, JUST YOU WAIT!
I've so many friends behind me so we'll see who's the real loser now. And im gonna prove your big fat ass wrong- I CAN DO IT! Saturday was pretty much a bad day, that's why. I'm gonna make myself worth all these sweat and trainings, i will.
I hate my pms-es, i really really do. I hate it when it totally screwed up my mood, oh hell yes. Oh i really like posting in abstract form leaving you guys so confused.
xoxo
Sunday, August 1, 2010
damn
Damn me, I'm such a big failure.
It sucks to be me, it sucks to ever partner me for any senior-junior practices anyways. I totally screwed up yesterday's okay? Just cuz of the bad experiences my other friends had with her, made me so damn freaking scared. And I'm telling you its hell not worth the experience. Damn, now I know how it feels like being a mega loser and a huge disappointed! :( I really didn't know cca played such a damn important role. It's funny how I cheer on people when they have the same situation as me but I can't even pick myself up. How funny.
Well, let's move on and wait for the next training to either prove myself wrong or just stay in the pathetic situation I'm forever gonna be in. Ok jiaxuan, better cheer up and work harder. Before something disappoints you.
I really really wish I was less hateful, then maybe I wouldn't feel so fucked up anymore.
xoxo
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masterjinn - for the brushes.
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-blackberry, baby pink -that cotton on high waist pants
-boots for Korea trip
-new diary
-renewable self-esteem/confidence
-d/c
-best friends forever
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